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Friday, February 9

Heyy...

Now i realise that in life we cant trust someone easily. Trust cant be earned with just few conversation with a particular person. I trusted her and always listen to her problems when shes down or just need a listening ear. I was there. Im not trying to dig up what had happen or what i had done but im dissapointed over what you did. Lucky for you im not going to stoop so low and act like bitch,like you, and go around talking about people like that. If i had a bad mouth and wanted to just get back to you, i can go around telling everyone what you told me and maybe twist the story abit like what you did to us.Pointing fingers at everyone when u have no idea what the hell you are talking about. I just dont understand what your motive are. If you are trying to make all of us fight then too bad cause we aint going to fight. Unlike you who is already 25 yrs old but we, the 19s and 20s yrs old are mature enough to solve all this reasonably. Why you have no more friends to turn to isit? Thats why you are telling her all this so that she can came back to you and be your friend again and ditch us? Well too bad girl cause i dont think this will ever happen. I dont know whether i should be pissed off or dissapointed at you. But for now, the sight of you just irritate me, your 'Hellos' are left unheard in my ear and also your smile are left unseen in my eyes.
You can go to the fucking hell for all i care!!!

Because off all this im already starting to doubt the people i trust right now. I always ask myself will they turn out to be the person who will just backstabbed me unknowningly. Darn. I hate it when all this happen. Seriously for now i can only trust few people and i hope that they are the peoples i can really trust and will not break this trust i have on them. Hopefully.

Whenever a trust issue came about only one person will go through my mind and that is Hadi. How is he eh. Hope hes all good and fine. Its been a while since we last met and chat. Suppose to meet him last saturday but suddenly i dont feel like going out with him on that day. Sorry yah, will make it up to you someday.Haha. Sometimes i think i still have feeling for him but whenever he talk about it and he confess everything i will just push everything and tell him all this can never happen again. Maybe because im too scared history will repeat or maybe im just plain scare to commit again. I dont know. Maybe we re not meant to be lah. Haha. Like i always say hah. :)

Goodbye and goodnyte peoples..
Take care...
:)